I know……….I know…………..I’ve been trifling lately. Haven’t written a blog for 1 month. And let me tell you why. I know there are some that think I’m ENcouraged and ENcouraging all the time. Ah…..not so much. It’s as if I reach some goal and then I plateau or I still have clothes that don’t fit me well or some major pitfall. Thereby, this leaves me DIScouraged.
In an attempt to share my success while pointing out to others the necessity to exercise and live a healthy lifestyle, I manage to slip back into my own mental madness mode as I have 50 trillion reasons why I want to lose weight. Have I lost weight recently? I sure have. Am I a size 10 yet? Hell no. Am I a size 14 yet? Hell no. Am I a size 18? sort of. I can put on 18’s but I mainly wear a 20. The good news for myself is that I am NOT a 22, 24 or 26 like I USED to be. DAMN I’m glad about that!
You also know that my 20th class reunion is in July of 2009. I have had all these lofty goals about what size I want to wear or how many pounds I’d like to lose. Admittedly, I don’t even want to SEE any class of 1989 people from Hyde Park Career Academy UNTIL then. Why? because I don’t look like I want to look yet! (HPCA c/o 89– I still love yall) 
. However, I have come to two conclusions. One is that when I see myself, I see that same girl that used to be 312 pounds. I have come such a long way from then but because I look at myself every day it’s difficult to see what others see. Conclusion number 2 is that although I practically live in New York Sports Club, I eat rabbit food, I limit carbohydrates, I eat more healthy snacks, I drink bucket loads of water and yada yada yada, my body has been big for years and it just doesn’t want to let go all the weight as expeditiously as I had hoped. In other words, whatever weight I lose by my reunion or period it IS what it IS. It will be however it will be. As long as I keep trying I will always be successful and THAT is what not only myself but anyone reading this with an attempt at a better physical existence will have to will be successful. Until next time…Smooches 
Wonderful…. Wonderful blog entry. Weight is a day to day struggle for some of us and eating properly is the best way to fight it. We may not be able to loose weight like we would want to, but the main thing is that we make it a lifestyle change that will benefit us in the long run. Keep up the good work Tiffany! You are truly an inspiration for all!
Comment by Vera — September 9, 2008 @ 6:26 pm
Gone Tiff…thats what I’m saying..It is…What it Is…and with a Personality like you’res lets just say…you’ll ALWAYS..AND I MEAN ALWAYZZZZ shine..lol..But your blogs are very incouraging..but girl..i don’t think i can go completely off Carbs..no bread?? how do you eat a sandwich without bread??
Comment by Tamiko — September 9, 2008 @ 6:46 pm
Gone Tiff…thats what I’m saying..It is…What it Is…and with a Personality like you’res lets just say…you’ll ALWAYS..AND I MEAN ALWAYZZZZ shine..lol..But your blogs are very incouraging..but girl..i don’t think i can go completely off Carbs..no bread?? how do you eat a sandwich without bread??
Comment by Tamiko — September 9, 2008 @ 6:46 pm