Okay try this…..

Yall,

Have you ever wondered what “insanity” means? It means doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result. I often wondered why am I just cute instead of gorgeous??? (ha,ha,ha…okay so I have an ego problem). Seriously, this year alone I have made my gymnasium efforts to 4 days a week. Doesn’t matter if it’s consecutive or scattered about. I made it in that piece four days. And since this year is about to end and at a fast pace might I add, I’ve decided to ‘try this’…….

SIX DAYS A WEEK! Something different for me right? I am on a rampage. I am going to be a size sexy and healthy if it kills me. Well maybe not that drastic. But the point is to up your game. In anything you do. I have admittedly been on a Dorito Cool Ranch/Nacho Cheese binge for 8 days. Perhaps it was because of my menstrual cycle (umm, sorry to gross you out men… women do go through this ya know ). I do suffer from what I’d like to call CHIP DEMENTIA! This is a must have from time to time. Cheddar chips, sour cream chips, barbecue chips, cookies and chips, chip chips, fish and chips. Ya feel me?

So back to this whole 6 days a week thing. Not that I should condone a “chip ministry” I do however want to condone more gym visits in my week. Perhaps if you are not the gym person and you need to choose other methods of physical fitness, you may want to try to up your game. Some of you  may have just started working out and that’s great.  But every now and again up your game. It’ll help in the long run towards better physical fitness and healthy lifestyles …. especially if you have a chip issue like I seem to. Until next time. Smooches!!!

Speaking positively

Okay this is what I have to say for  speaking  positively…. !@#$% and @#%^&* and _+*&^$% and another thing…..<>?”:}{|)+*&@!!!#%&!!!! And that’s all I have to say about that!

So I’m sure you all think I’m sliding down a one way pole to the “land of enchanted crazy abyss”!! One of the things that is hardest for me the most as a Christian and and bootleg motivator and that is to speak  positively all the time. About this weight loss process. About my life, my outlook and my attitude. Sometimes I say really negative sh*t! (oops is that the first time I cursed in my blog). My trainer had to check me the  other day about the things that I was saying when he made me  lift my leg 97 1/2 times (Hi Xavior) !!

But as I listened to him and thought about the things that I speak and how negative they are there might just be a chance that I am where I am in this weight loss journey because I don’t believe I’ll reach my goal. I sometimes think that I’ll never be a size 10. My knees will always hurt and that my breasts will always be a G cup (yes men, I wear a G cup   —- get your tongues off the ground!)

So now is the time where I am going to start affirming myself. Not only in weight but as it pertains to other aspects of my life. Life will throw you such fiery darts that in  order to protect yourself sometimes if you surround yourself with negativity then when negative (  or  not quite positive ) things happen then  you won’t  be surprised. How did I come up with this  topic as it pertains to working out and eating right? Well I positively ate Popeye’s tonight and I wanted to focus on ways to affirm and feel good about yourself.

Admittedly I don’t have the answers but I do know that as long as you continue to put your best foot forward then speaking positively (daily) should come naturally. So from this day forward I will  speak life into my situations and life over my health. Just because I’m still not where I want to be I’m not where I used to be (weight wise). Speak life. Speak life and speak mo’ life and after that….what you speak will happen…it has no choice to. Until next time live your best life! Dang now I sound like Oprah! Smooches 

It IS what it IS!!

I know……….I know…………..I’ve been trifling lately. Haven’t written a blog for 1 month. And let me tell you why. I know there are some that think I’m ENcouraged and ENcouraging all the time. Ah…..not so much. It’s as if I reach some goal and then I plateau or I still have clothes that don’t fit me well or some major pitfall. Thereby, this leaves me DIScouraged.

In an attempt to share my success while pointing out to others the necessity to exercise and live a healthy lifestyle, I manage to slip back into my own mental madness mode as I have 50 trillion reasons why I want to lose weight. Have I lost weight recently? I sure have. Am I a size 10 yet? Hell no. Am I a size 14 yet? Hell no. Am I a size 18? sort of. I can put on 18’s but I mainly wear a 20. The good news for myself is that I am NOT a 22, 24 or 26 like I USED to be. DAMN I’m glad about that!

You also know that my 20th class reunion is in July of 2009. I have had all these lofty goals about what size I want to wear or how many pounds I’d like to lose. Admittedly, I don’t even want to SEE any class of 1989 people from Hyde Park Career Academy UNTIL then. Why? because I don’t look like I want to look yet! (HPCA c/o 89– I still love yall) .  However, I have come to two conclusions. One is that when I see myself, I see that same girl that used to be 312 pounds. I have come such a long way from then but because I look at myself every day it’s difficult to see what others see. Conclusion number 2 is that although I practically live in New York Sports Club, I eat rabbit food, I limit carbohydrates, I eat more healthy snacks, I drink bucket loads of water and yada yada yada, my body has been big for years and it just doesn’t want to let go all the weight as expeditiously as I had hoped. In other words, whatever weight I lose by my reunion or period it IS what it IS. It will be however it will be. As long as I keep trying I will always be successful and THAT is what not only myself but anyone reading this with an attempt at a better physical existence will have to will be successful. Until next time…Smooches